Why don't I weep more? Is it that I don't understand my need? Is it that I've grown so complacent with sin that I don't care about offending God anymore?

Why don't I weep more? Have I stopped feeling gratitude for the grace that has been given me? Have I dared to believe that I deserve anything but wrath?

I'm like a pendulum. Maybe once I swung high and tasted true grief and true joy. Over time, though, I've settled until my motion is barely descernable. Otherwise, I would weep.